Is it possible?? Is my sweet baby Ben really four years old already? Was it really four years ago that we had a baby so unexpectedly and got blessed with this beautiful little boy despite all our worst fears for his survival and well-being? Praise God for helping Ben start from this tiny fragile body to the big, healthy boy we know today.

I can finally look at most of his early pictures now without getting emotional but Ben's birthday will always bring back a little of the shock and fear of having a 1lb 9oz baby on life support. Not the way anyone pictures getting initiated into the world of parenthood. But look at the amazing little boy he has grown into. (and yes, I specifically chose a picture with jelly on his cheeks to keep things authentic)

The age of 3 has been an absolute joy and a roller coaster ride...every day has been exciting and emotional and insightful. His amazing vocabulary has let us into the wonders of that little head and let us know everything, and I do mean everything, he is thinking about from 7am to 7pm. We still run into the whining and outbursts, but for the most part he is a tiny little adult and blows my mind regularly. Ben is smart, incredibly observant to his surroundings, curious, thoughtful, loving, funny, and imaginative. He makes me laugh every single day. He takes care of Alex, shares things with him, and assaults him daily but won't stand for anyone else mistreating his little brother. No one gives better hugs or makes such wonderful pretend ice cream.
Ben is tall and thin and doesn't have an ounce of fat on him anywhere. We both love that he's still so easy to pick up and throw around and he doesn't have much fear of any physical feats - he's determined to keep jumping off the steps until he breaks. He's still quite the dancer but chooses to be more intellectual these days unless he particularly loves a song or see Alex dancing. Ben will do anything for a cupcake or marshmallow. He has a special voice for his puppy and treats him like a lifelong friend. I think he would watch TV all day without moving but the minute to door opens he's outside running around like a crazy man.
If he can see that I'm sad or tired, Ben will give me kisses and tell me everything will be okay. He's still jealous of my lap and will fight for space if Alex is in it. Ben loves to sing and regularly gets called out at school for singing (loudly, I'm sure) when it's quiet time....we often hear him singing until he goes to sleep at night. Routine is important to him and he has a huge checklist of things he wants done before bedtime, including about a dozen little friends in bed with him. His favorite meal is anything with french fries. When we go to McDonalds, I ask if he wants a cheeseburger or nuggets and he inevitably answers "french fries!".
Current favorite phrases:
"Mama, why are you not talking?" (usually when I've zoned out in the car after 30 minutes of questions)
"Why?" this applies to everything, as in: why is it Tuesday? why is it dinnertime? why is that the hamper?
"I am very cross." I blame this one on his teacher and her british roots.
"Alex, are you readdddaaayyy??" Usually before they get in trouble for something like jumping on the couch.
"Sorry, I can't do that because I'm too ____" Fill in the blank with: tired, busy, hungry, tall, little, etc etc. The reason need not fit the request.
"Mama, I love you." Typically a while after he's gotten in trouble for something and is trying to make sure we're still friends, but it never fails to melt my heart, especially if he tilts his head and grabs my cheek. This boy will break some hearts one day. Ladies, you have been warned.
Ben, I love you with all my heart. You make me a better person each day because I want to be at my very best to raise you into a strong, intelligent, loving, God-fearing, man of character. You make me proud each and every day. I look forward to what this next year holds in store for you!